Memorial Day weekend

Hope everyone... all two of you.... had a great Memorial Day weekend! I had lots of things going on this weekend.

Saturday, my 17yr old, graduated from private School up in Sac. I can't tell you how proud I am of him... when his mother started dating a guy that graduated from the same school and she wanted our son to go there, I wasn't all that excited about him going there. He had to take entrance exams and he passed them so I couldn't say no even though the area in which he was raised had all new public schools and were considered some of the best in California

Well, fast forward 4 years... he's become quite the young man. Responsible, intelligent and he's been accepted to college in Spokane Washington. While at his graduation, the administrator that was announcing the grads, asked them all kind of questions and told them to stand if they had a certain dot on their program, each time a number of kids would stand up and then sit down again. They did this a number of times and then, he asked "anyone going to college in the fall to please stand up" and ALL of them stood, all 267 young men. Quite an accomplishment. 267 out of 267 kids graduating, accepted to college... I guess there are advantages to private school. They teach them to EXCEL, not just get by. The teach them to HELP THE COMMUNITY, not just use it... Each young man had to do over 100 hours of community service and some did over 800 hours.. amazing was an understatement. 4.78 Grade point averages... pretty unbelievable!

On Monday, I left on the bike to attend a Memorial Ceremony. Our Motorcycle group of 200 led by Highway Patrol and sheriff's, led a procession to the Memorial Auditorium. We escorted the parents of two soldiers from the area that was killed in Iraq last year. It was an amazing turn out. thousands of people came to remember those that had given their lives in defending our nation and our rights to live free... or at least to live better than most!

The fallen soldiers parents are a part of our group and with great pride we led them to the ceremony. There was a granite monument dedicated to those that have lost their lives in the war. When the gentleman that put together the event started talking, he broke out in tears... seeing an 80 yr. old Italian, talking about two 20 yr old young men that died, break down in tears.. was more than most could handle and the tears flowed... what an experience... it really brings home what 5056 other families must be going through... it also makes me glad that my own son's didn't volunteer to fight. I'm glad there are others out there that are willing to put their lives on the line to defend our honor... God bless them!

Unhappy Girlfriend

I told my girlfrienr>d that an old flame had contacted me....... and OH SHIT... it hit the fan... she got all worried about What if, What if.. I told her that she was someone that I knew LONG ago, had lost touch with and reconnected... didn't go over well... we've been battling ever since... "How can I trust you" " you're going to want to Fuck her" "what about our future" on and on... I haven't even talked to this person, haven't seen her... we are just filling in the gaps of 30 years of time. She has a family, so do I, I want her in my circle of friends. I want my girlfriend and her to meet. I think they would get along great! It's a Jealousy issue and to be honest, I too would probably have some issues with it... I love my girlfriend. We get along GREAT we have great chemistry together... How do I make her understand that its just to old friends getting reacquainted she was my first love but she has a family and so do I. We just want to be friends..

any suggestions!!

any help is needed

Still Shaking

So, there I was, under a house fixing something for the homeowner... I was doing something that was quiet and there wasn't any noise... when all of a sudden, I heard a woman SCREAM, a very short, startled scream... and a second later, two gun shots... now, I'm a rancher, I'm an outdoorsman.. I know a gunshot when I hear one or two! First, the hair on my neck bristled, then my heart raced and then I climbed out from under the house, at first I thought I would go upstairs and check on the woman of the house... but then I thought, "I don't know her or her situation" I didn't know if she was estranged from her husband, I didn't know if there were other people in the house.. I didn't want to walk in on something that I wasn't prepared for, I wasn't armed and that scream, those shots... SCARED ME.

I dialed 911 and talked to the operator while I waited for the police to arrive... I got myself next to a wall so no one could walk up behind me yet I could see if anyone left the house or raced down the hill... my heart was racing, my hands were shaking and to be honest, I don't think I've ever felt like that before...

The police arrived in force, as they arrived, the woman of the house came down the stairs and they met her with guns drawn, "SHOW US YOUR HANDS!! SHOW US YOUR HANDS!" I shouted, "SHOW THEM YOUR HANDS!!!!" she did. She was safe, it wasn't from inside the house... the police checked the houses on either side.. they were safe too. Then they started checking the neighborhood. The house is in a big canyon so sound travels... I couldn't tell where it came from because I was under the house when I heard it... but I DEFINITELY heard "IT"...

The police allowed me to finish my job, the woman went back into her house and the police continued to check the area... I made sure the woman was OK and then I left... I don't know what will come of all of this but A SCREAM and two Gunshots makes me wonder...

Scary...

A healthy conversation with the loved one

Last night I spent 2 1/2 hrs on the phone with my GF. Now, you may not believe this but I hate talking on the phone. When I do talk on the phone, it's normally to say what I need to say and then I get off. Normally no more that a couple of minutes. My GF always tells me " you never talk to me on the phone" or "why can't you spend some time talking to me on the phone" I just never like to sit and waste time on the phone when I can be doing something else.

Well, last night I spent some time on the phone with her. I think it's funny how an out of this world date in SF can bring two people closer together. I mean, we were close before but this weekend, we passed into another area of our relationship. We passed into the TOTAL TRUST zone, so to speak. It was a fulfilling, exhilarating experience that I think brought us closer together and according to her, she felt the same way. All of those fears, doubts and uncomfortable feeling were gone.

When we first started dating, almost 2 years ago, we talked about being able to explore our sexual desires without the other feeling hurt or anxious. It's taken a few experiences and a lot of late night talks to realize it. Today I feel "open" and able to share pretty much anything I want with her. I also feel that she can do the same and we will be OK.

For some reason, I was holding back. Always keeping my walls up, just a little, so that I couldn't be hurt or let down or attacked... I didn't want to expose myself completely. Now, I'm working on expressing myself without the holdbacks. It's a work in progress but something I'm striving for.

Have you ever felt that your life finally opened up so that your significant other could see inside your world without worry?

Have you talked TOTALLY openly about your wants (sexually) and desires with your partner at the risk of losing it all?

How did it make you feel once you confided in your partner?

I'm interested in hearing others opinions about this!

Raining here but hoping for some breaks in the weather for some Dog walking time. Have a great day!