My Eye on HNT

I just thought I would look through my eye and see what's out there...
Maybe not the prettiest eye. Maybe hasn't seen everything it was meant to see, but it's seen a lot. Everything that eye sees, the brain remembers...

This eye has been though a lot and the wrinkles around it tell a story of their own.
If you could only see all I've seen... I think you'd have a new appreciation for this eye... it's served me well.
Happy HNT !!

Why I love the ranch

This last weekend, I went to our ranch. I love it up there. If I could find a way to make a living without having to go to work, I'd live up there and only leave to pick up supplies and for social events. I'd love to spend a couple of months just working on the ranch, playing on the ranch and living on the ranch.
We have water, food, pretty much everything a person would need to live up there and the best part, no cell phones, no TV, no cable, no internet. The only electricity is the generator that we use to run the lights at night.
I've posted a few pictures of the ranch before but here are a couple of some Manzanita Trees that I saw while hiking this weekend. They are so old, they were probably just little bushes when the 49er's discovered gold in California. There are Oak Trees that are 40 feet around at the base. It's the Wild, Wild West up there and I think that's what I love most about it.

I wish I had my camera with me on Saturday afternoon. I was walking along a meadow and was looking out over the valley below not really paying attention to much when I saw something out of the corner of my eye lunge at me. By the time I realized what it was, I had jumped back. It was a 5 foot Rattlesnake! He was about 3 inches thick and he JUST missed my leg with his strike. He then started rattling at me. This is pretty unusual. Most of the time, when a snake senses you, they rattle to let you know they are there. I see them every so often when I'm out hiking and they never bother me but this one was angry, hunger and probably didn't like the fact that it was over 100 degrees out at the time. Anyway, I asked him to move along and I went my own way. This time, being a little more careful about where I was going.

Have a wonderful week and I'll see you on Thursday!

Half Naked Thursday

I know it's Wednesday but I'm not going to be able to post tomorrow so since I've been turned on to the Half Naked Thursday.... I thought I would break the mold and post one myself... DON'T LAUGH!!

I'm bashful and it's my first......

Some nights are just lousy

Last night started off as most nights. I got home from work, did a few chores and then settled in to watch a little TV while I waited for the GF to come over. Wed. and Thurs. Nights are our "Do Stuff together" nights and normally, we base our weeks around those nights and the weekends. Last night was no different.

See, she's a hairdresser and those two nights are the nights she works late and then stays at my house instead of going home. It's been that way for almost two years except for the occasional "change of plans" that happens when you both have kids.

I got the call about 8:00 from her, nothing unusual, she normally calls when she's about to leave the shop and let me know that she was on her way. It was her on the phone and she told me that her old boyfriend came by for a haircut and that he was hungry and wanted to take her to get something to eat. He's married, has a son and a pretty wife and he's pretty harmless but she told me a few months ago, when we were having one of our "talks" that he always has wanted her and that even thou he's married, before we were together, she'd fucked him.

Well, I've been feeling a little out of sorts lately and I wondered if maybe I'd missed something. A sign, some comment, something that would have led up to this... but I couldn't think of any... so, anyway, she said she was going to go out to dinner and if I wanted to meet him, to meet them at a restaurant that's not too far from my house. I figured what the hell, There wasn't any reason that I couldn't meet this guy so I went to the restaurant and met them. He seemed like a pretty good guy. We talked about all kinds of stuff. We knew a lot of the same people having both grown up in the same area but different circle of friends. It was a good evening. I thought it went well. Then....

Knowing that I was going to be out of town this weekend, up in the mountains with my guy friends being mountain men, she invited herself to go down to watch his son in race that he is in. She didn't want to drive with them so she was going to drive her own car. So he and her came up with another guy, another old friend, that was best friends with her other boyfriend, (they all ran in the same circle) that she could go down with to watch the race. It's about 90 miles to where they had to go and wouldn't be back until about 1:00 in the morning.

Now, I've been working on those feelings of jealousy and I've been doing really good at not having them. I mean, I just met the old boyfriend, I was going to be out of town and there isn't any cell service where our ranch is and there are about 25 other girls she could invite to go with her, she decides that inviting this guy is a good idea... well... I didn't...

I told her that I didn't feel comfortable with her plans and thats when she started getting all defensive. Voice went up and octave, she got louder, ( I forgot to mention that she had a couple of drinks prior to my arrival at the restaurant) and she told me that they were just friends and that she could do whatever she wanted... I agreed and then I said, "so, I guess you don't mind if I start going out with my old girlfriends and other women that I used to hang out with... that's when she started yelling, and then left the room.

So, I guess I hit a nerve. She didn't say a word to me the rest of the night, and to be honest, I was OK with that. This morning, I couldn't wait for her to leave...

Isn't it funny how it's OK that she hangs out with old GUY friends but as soon as I mentioned me doing it with old GIRL friends, she flipped. She said, that they were just her FRIENDS and that if I hung out with girl "friends" that I would be trying to have sex with them... doesn't she realize, that THAT is what THEY are trying to do with her??

Well, I see the end coming for this relationship... it's to bad too, I thought she had potential... such is life....

Same old job....

Well, I haven't changed careers yet... still doing research on being a Nanny Daddy. Sure sounded good at the time...

I'm having the most trouble I've ever had in my life just going to work. See I work for myself and just the thought of getting out of bed, getting dressed and leaving the house feels like a TON of weight on my. I thought maybe I was depressed about something but I can't put my finger on it. My life isn't bad, I have a pretty good GF that loves having new adventures with me. I have a job that pays me more in one hour than some make in a day. I don't have any pressures that are overwhelming. I have a roof over my head, a Motorcycle to ride and sunshine.. I have a truck that can climb any mountain and I use it for that... things are good, just not great!

I'm going to see Wonderbread 5 on Friday night with a group of 6 girls and all of them are wild and crazy. I'm heading to the ranch after to hang out with my buddies and do "guy" things for the rest of the weekend. Maybe it's that when I don't work, I have to budget my money and I'm not very good with budgeting... I could work more, there is plenty of work to do, I have more jobs than I can fit in especially when I don't want to do them...

So, having written this, I've come to the conclusion... I need to sleep more, get more rest, take some time for me and then get my ASS out there and do my jobs so that I can go on that vacation to Mexico that I've been planning and feel good about it!

Thanks for letting me bounce my shit off of you... you've helped more than you know.

Daddy Nanny

Can you keep a secret? I'm thinking about changing careers...

I've been a dad for 28 years and from the way my children turned out, I haven't done too bad of a job. Of course, with my own children, I had help from my second wife and together we were able to mold our children into some pretty good kids. It probably helped that they were given plenty of room to grow. Lots of exposer to adults and exposed to many areas of life. I would say that they are all pretty well rounded children.

I was thinking this morning while I am dealing with a horrendous sinus headache. Wondering what I could do to make more money doing something that I enjoy doing... and what I came up with is this...


I was thinking of offering my services as a "DAD Nanny" to the rich and unwilling to take part in their children's upbringing. I want to offer my skills at life, camping, ranching, shooting, waterskiing, wake boarding, sailing, basically, I want to help children to learn about life and experience all the things that their parents don't have time to do or aren't willing to take the time to teach them. There are so many children that would love to learn about life and the wild. I want to help them get out of the bedroom watching TV or playing video games and to experience the old ways of the world.
I would take them on outings, adventures and teach them manners, how to talk to people, answer their questions about anything and just be the "Dad" that they don't have....

What do you think? Do you think there are people out there that would pay a "DAD" to help teach their children about life?
My kids are out of the house. All but my youngest and he could help me to teach them. Show them that it's possible to learn about life outside the City life....

I'm willing to travel, take them to exotic places, Caribbean, Mexico, to the ranch and teach them how to survive in the wild so that if by chance something happened to this world, they would have the skills to live.

How much do you thing the rich and famous would pay to have someone teach their children about life?

If you know of anyone that doesn't have time to "deal" with their children, then refer them to me. We can work out a deal and in the end, their children will be better for it.


What do you think about my idea, I'm could use some feedback about it. There are LOTS of VERY rich people that are too busy to deal with their kids. I can do it for them.

Give me some ideas. For the right family, they could pay to teach their children about a great adventure and it's something I think I'd be really good at. I'll work anywhere in the country. All they have to do is pay me to do it...

Referrals welcome!

FEEDBACK WANTED! THANKS

Professional Blogger I'm not.

I've come to the conclusion that I am not a professional blogger. My life just isn't that amazing. I don't have craziness going on every day. My world doesn't flip out all the time and I don't worry to much about my figure...

When I started writing here on this blog I thought maybe I would have some insightful things to write about. I guess I could share about my relationship more. I could probably shock a few of you with stories of Wild sex, threesomes and foursomes... nights out in SF with my girlfriend going to sex clubs and watching others "do it" or "doing it" while others watched... I could tell you about all the times we've turned on our web cam and made crazy love sex together while strangers that we've never seen before watched us and played with themselves while we were doing it... but then, I guess I'm not as "open" as I thought I was because describing these things in detail wouldn't do them justice. They were and are the things that I enjoy doing with my special someone and if you happened upon us doing it somewhere, then we'd love to include you in our escapades.

Honestly, those weren't the reasons I started "blogging" I wanted to just have a place where I could write down my thoughts and my adventures and I was sure no one would ever discover them on the internet. I wanted to be able to put my most precious thoughts down. I wanted to just be able to write about my adventures with my kids and family. All the places we go and some of the things we like to do. But, what I've also discovered is that it probably isn't all that interesting to others.

So, I think what I'll do is continue to write my thoughts down. It gives me a place to do it where I don't have to worry as much about people I know seeing it and if you care to stop by once in a while and say hello, I'd like that as well.


I hope everyone had a great Labor Day weekend and I hope that this week finds you in good spirits.

Namaste