Unhappy Girlfriend

I told my girlfrienr>d that an old flame had contacted me....... and OH SHIT... it hit the fan... she got all worried about What if, What if.. I told her that she was someone that I knew LONG ago, had lost touch with and reconnected... didn't go over well... we've been battling ever since... "How can I trust you" " you're going to want to Fuck her" "what about our future" on and on... I haven't even talked to this person, haven't seen her... we are just filling in the gaps of 30 years of time. She has a family, so do I, I want her in my circle of friends. I want my girlfriend and her to meet. I think they would get along great! It's a Jealousy issue and to be honest, I too would probably have some issues with it... I love my girlfriend. We get along GREAT we have great chemistry together... How do I make her understand that its just to old friends getting reacquainted she was my first love but she has a family and so do I. We just want to be friends..

any suggestions!!

any help is needed

Still Shaking

So, there I was, under a house fixing something for the homeowner... I was doing something that was quiet and there wasn't any noise... when all of a sudden, I heard a woman SCREAM, a very short, startled scream... and a second later, two gun shots... now, I'm a rancher, I'm an outdoorsman.. I know a gunshot when I hear one or two! First, the hair on my neck bristled, then my heart raced and then I climbed out from under the house, at first I thought I would go upstairs and check on the woman of the house... but then I thought, "I don't know her or her situation" I didn't know if she was estranged from her husband, I didn't know if there were other people in the house.. I didn't want to walk in on something that I wasn't prepared for, I wasn't armed and that scream, those shots... SCARED ME.

I dialed 911 and talked to the operator while I waited for the police to arrive... I got myself next to a wall so no one could walk up behind me yet I could see if anyone left the house or raced down the hill... my heart was racing, my hands were shaking and to be honest, I don't think I've ever felt like that before...

The police arrived in force, as they arrived, the woman of the house came down the stairs and they met her with guns drawn, "SHOW US YOUR HANDS!! SHOW US YOUR HANDS!" I shouted, "SHOW THEM YOUR HANDS!!!!" she did. She was safe, it wasn't from inside the house... the police checked the houses on either side.. they were safe too. Then they started checking the neighborhood. The house is in a big canyon so sound travels... I couldn't tell where it came from because I was under the house when I heard it... but I DEFINITELY heard "IT"...

The police allowed me to finish my job, the woman went back into her house and the police continued to check the area... I made sure the woman was OK and then I left... I don't know what will come of all of this but A SCREAM and two Gunshots makes me wonder...

Scary...

A healthy conversation with the loved one

Last night I spent 2 1/2 hrs on the phone with my GF. Now, you may not believe this but I hate talking on the phone. When I do talk on the phone, it's normally to say what I need to say and then I get off. Normally no more that a couple of minutes. My GF always tells me " you never talk to me on the phone" or "why can't you spend some time talking to me on the phone" I just never like to sit and waste time on the phone when I can be doing something else.

Well, last night I spent some time on the phone with her. I think it's funny how an out of this world date in SF can bring two people closer together. I mean, we were close before but this weekend, we passed into another area of our relationship. We passed into the TOTAL TRUST zone, so to speak. It was a fulfilling, exhilarating experience that I think brought us closer together and according to her, she felt the same way. All of those fears, doubts and uncomfortable feeling were gone.

When we first started dating, almost 2 years ago, we talked about being able to explore our sexual desires without the other feeling hurt or anxious. It's taken a few experiences and a lot of late night talks to realize it. Today I feel "open" and able to share pretty much anything I want with her. I also feel that she can do the same and we will be OK.

For some reason, I was holding back. Always keeping my walls up, just a little, so that I couldn't be hurt or let down or attacked... I didn't want to expose myself completely. Now, I'm working on expressing myself without the holdbacks. It's a work in progress but something I'm striving for.

Have you ever felt that your life finally opened up so that your significant other could see inside your world without worry?

Have you talked TOTALLY openly about your wants (sexually) and desires with your partner at the risk of losing it all?

How did it make you feel once you confided in your partner?

I'm interested in hearing others opinions about this!

Raining here but hoping for some breaks in the weather for some Dog walking time. Have a great day!

A wild night in San Francisco

I have a new found like for San Francisco... I discovered an area that was beyond my wildest dreams...

My girlfriend and I had a date last night. Not that we don't do a lot of things together but this was a special night. We were going to a "wild" party in SF and neither of us had been to a "wild" party before... It was held in a really nice hotel and put on by a couple that likes to enjoy themselves... My GF arrived at my house about 11:00 and we headed out. The city was pretty, the lights and skyline gorgeous as ever. Parking wasn't a problem. We found a spot on the street about a block from where we were going. That alone was a good start and if it was an omen as to what was to come. it couldn't have been a better spot.

We walked into the hotel and there was a party going on just as we walked in the door. The first thing I noticed was all the beautiful people that were sitting around talking and dancing. I think that all the pretty people of the Bay Area were there. The girls dressed to the nines and the guys trying to be on their best behavior. We were told to call a number when we got there and they would meet us at the elevator. We went to the top of the building to a large suite... as soon as we walked in, we could tell that it was a "Special Party" there were people sitting around kissing, fondling each other and pretty much "having fun" We were greeted by a beautiful girl in boy shorts and nothing else, she gave me a nice kiss hello and then planted a passionate kiss on my GF. Her hands quickly finding my GF's breasts, which by the way are incredible and letting her know right away that she was interested in getting to know her better.. OK, that was hot and I could tell she instantly liked my GF... without getting into too much detail... it was a night to remember, and I'm sure my GF will never forget!! Later that night, when we were in the car making love on the street in front of the hotel, she told me that she had never "looked" at a woman in that way before... We had an incredible night and made a few VERY close friends.. so to speak... it's funny, because if you were to see some of these people on the street, you wouldn't have any idea of how wild they are... and the things they like to do...

Well, my GF is already plotting the next adventure. She's like a woman possessed! I think she likes the feel of a woman and the fact that we can do it together makes it all the more fun! I think things are going to get more interesting as the summer comes and she does her little plotting... I think I'm in love~ LOL

Men can't win

Last night was a normal night, nothing out of the ordinary. Sat down to have dinner and then went into the living room to watch some boob tube... my girlfriend was going to work late so I had some free time... and then... in walked the girlfriend. (br)I could tell right away that there was something on her mind... she beat around the bush, hemmed and haaded... and then it slowly started to come out... we doing do enough, I don't respond correctly... and then she felt that it was OK to start yelling... now, I don't do yelling, but last night, I was fed up with the BS. She had a couple of cocktails so she had some false power.. I was pissed! I told her to get out... she left and a few minutes later called me to continue the problem... I didn't want to have anything to do with it.. I she started yelling,,, I hung up... she must have called 10 times... then all of a sudden, she came to my door again... she kept asking me if I REALLY wanted to end it.. and to tell you the truth, I did! I don't do well with fighting. I prefer to talk things through.. without the heated yelling, once the yelling starts, communication stops... finally, I went to her and just gave her a hug. I didnt' know what else to do, I don't want to break up with her. She's a lot of fun but I can't handle the ups and downs that she's going through...

We talked and then we got in the hot tub... the stars were out and it was so relaxing, I just came to the conclusion that it wasn't worth fighting for... we ended up breaking in the new hot tub last night and man did we do it right!! I'm working on not carrying things with me but sometimes I have to process it before I can work through it. We made up, had some Anger Sex and crawled into bed... Tonight it's a night out in SF. Dinner and then some hanky panky at Twist...
Anger management at it's finest!

Happy Weekend~

Daddy's got some new carpet tonight!

I'm working in a rather nice house in the hills above Kent Woodlands... it's a REALLY nice house too. It was sold recently to a nice couple... This house has a very nice kitchen, nice bedrooms, beautiful office, awesome master bathroom and a yard overlooking all of the San Pablo Bay all the way to Oakland and beyond... A large pool on the deck with a hot tub and some great sunbathing area. It was move in ready!

BUT, the owners, before they could even move into it. DEMO'D the kitchen, back office and took all of the NEW carpet out of the bedrooms. It just amazes me that people have so much money that they would take a perfectly good home and tear it up. I know that what we're doing to it will make it even prettier but unnecessary. Why do people buy a beautiful home for 3 Million or so and then tear it up??? I mean, I don't mind taking their money but really... They're going to drop another 500K to remodel it and then what?? Sell it.. Good luck in this economy.

So, what's that got to do with me you ask... Well, I get to take that perfectly NEW, never used Carpet and I get to put it into MY HOUSE, Thank you Mister Rich people !!
So, Berber Carpet for me and who knows maybe they won't like the 50 inch TV that they used to stage the house and left when it was sold...LOL

Have a great Wednesday

Testing my phone to send blogs just in case I need to say something and I can't get to my computer. Test. Test

Hiking in Marin

Hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day. I read today about some people that feel we shouldn't celebrate Mothers Day because its become a "Hallmark" day. Well, I think those people need a hug! I care about my mother every day but it's nice to make a day a SPECIAL day so that, even at her age, I can spoil her. What's one day out of your busy schedule to bring a smile to your mothers face.

I spent Saturday hiking the hills of Marin. I've lived in Marin on and off for a long time and even to this day, I still find incredible places to go. Places I've never been. My mother was into taking us kids all over Marin on hikes and we would spend many days hiking the hills of Marin. It's amazing to live in such a beautiful place. I forget that there are many people in this world that don't have such a beautiful place to live. Lakes, Hills, Bays, Beaches. The list goes on and on.

If you haven't hiked the Carson Creek trail to the 90 foot waterfalls. It's a fairly easy hike. Our hike totaled 3.7 miles total. Some fire roads and some nice trails under the trees. Once you get close to the falls, the trail gets a little steeper and if you do like we did, you can hike down another quarter mile to some other pools below the waterfalls. I took my puppy and the puppies mother. My puppy must have put in an extra 5 miles... She loved it!

I'm looking forward to finding another hiking wonder spot next soon. I'll let you know where it is once I find it!

If you have any suggestions for hikes, please let me know. I'm always looking for new locations! Thanks.

Crazy people (girlfriend)

So, there I was. Working on my girlfriends car. She was having a battery problem and the rear view mirror had broken off of the windshield and it was starting to get dark so I was trying to get it together for her. You see, she didn't show up at the house early like she said she would.

She was out talking to one of her crazy girlfriends. You might know her... she's the girl that can't hold a relationship, cheats on her boyfriends and loves to hit the bars on the weekends and be the center of attention while stumbling around talking all kinds of craziness... Well, when she did get back, I fixed the problems in her car and came into the house... I cleaned up and then started making dinner. Nothing big, just some Shrimp stir fry and veggies. We had a nice dinner and watched a movie then decided to take a little Jacuzzi.

Nothing out of the ordinary... AND THEN... out of the blue.... CRAZINESS...!! I'm not a verbal fighter, I prefer to discuss issues but they came fast and furious.. one after another, I'm a cheater, I'm a liar, I don't know how to discuss problems... "her girlfriend said this, and her girlfriend said that" I didn't know WHAT she was talking about... she asked if I emailed or texted other women.. I answered " Yes " I send messages to customers all the time. I also do have female friends that talk to me and I talk to, all with her knowledge... and then I figured it out... she'd been talking to her girlfriend that is about as messed up as a person can get... and she was filling her with craziness...

I'm wild, I'm crazy, I love wild kinky sex. I love Soft porn. Hardcore porn. I even love just making love... I also worry at times about not making enough money to do EVERYTHING I want.. and then I realize that I have enough to keep me fed and happy... And then, I get the "What are we doing" question. Where is our relationship going" Now, I let it be known VERY early in our relationship that I didn't want to get married. At least not now. But I was getting the "Talk" and it was time to cut bait. I told her that marriage wasn't in my near future and if that was a problem for her, she should start looking elsewhere. Not what she wanted to hear...

Now I had a crying, crazy woman on my hands... Sitting in the Jacuzzi, pissed off and not knowing what to do next... Then she said she was going to start Therapy.. so that's when I realized, she was scared... Scared of revealing her past. Revealing her feelings and she was scared... I hugged her, we dried off and went to bed. No, we didn't have sex. But we fell asleep, at least I did. Then this morning, she was off to work, I found a little note thanking me for listening to her...

And that just about sums up my day with a crazy girlfiend... What a day!

A weekend at the ranch

And no, I'm not talking about the Bunny Ranch! We have a ranch East of Milpitas. It's between Milpitas and Livermore as the crow flies. It's really amazing because most people of the Bay Area don't even know that there is WILD country out there. Mountain Lions, Coyotes, Rattlesnakes and just about anything else you'd find in the wild.
Really a beautiful place. it's so far outside the grid, that the only electricity is from the Generator that we bring with us. The only hot water is heated by the fire we cook with. One thing that is newer is the bathrooms... we do have running water. It's supplied by 8 spring boxes that we dug into the hillside at the highest point of the stream where the water comes out of the mountain. Really a beautiful thing. The water is so clean after being filtered by mother nature. It tastes nothing like "Fresh spring water" that you get in a bottle. This water is ACTUALLY spring water!

Friday night, my oldest son had a Prom to go to so I didn't pick them up until 1:00 in the morning and then drove to the ranch. Once on the dirt road, it's another 1 1/2 hours at a slow pace into the ranch. We travel through 3 other ranches to get to ours so it's pretty tough for "outsiders" to get in. When we arrived, all the work gang was busy with they're tasks. We started our work as well. We climbed about half a mile up a nearly straight up cliff in order to reach the springs that we were repairing. We carried large redwood boxes up with us along with all the tools. 2 steps forward, one step back because of the Oak leaves and shale on the hillside.
4 hours later, we had a full 1 in hose of water shooting down the hill. Really an amazing site considering that the only pressure was gravity.

We had dinner that night, and got to bed early. The next day, was more of a relaxing day. We spent it shooting guns and walking the ranch. With 3200 acres, you can walk forever and never see another footstep. That's what is so magical about this place. NO PEOPLE...

Later in the afternoon, my two boys and I were standing by the truck and I started looking around a huge 15 ft around Oak tree, yes, a giant! I turned to the boys and said, " If I was a Rattlesnake, this is where I would live" you see, it was like a ground squirrel playground, holes everywhere. Not more than 30 seconds later, I nearly stepped on a 4 ft. Rattler. MAN, that scared the crap out of me. He was big, fat and NOT HAPPY... I've never seen a snake move as fast as he did. He reared back and hissed, rattled and got ready to strike. I think I scared him... I know I was shaking! With one shot, we dispatched him. We normally don't shoot snakes but this happened to be an area that little kids walk and dogs play so it wasn't a good place for snakes.... I'll make a hat band out of his skin and we'll eat the snake as well. Bet you didn't know Rattlesnake tastes like Chicken!


Well, we had another excellent weekend of Men in the Mountains. I hope you all had a good weekend as well.